Struggle Yesterday
Being gay and a Church-active, chastity-abiding LDS guy presents interesting challenges. I struggle with loneliness and depression at times. For some reason, yesterday was particularly bad for me. In the evening, I got on my knees and pleaded with God for help. When I was done, I didn't feel any differently. I decided to be productive by doing some cleaning around the house. About 45 minutes later or so, I felt much better.
I am glad God will help us through our trials. I am happy to know I can call on Him for help when I need it.
posted by Chris W. @ 4:24 PM
6 comments
6 Comments:
Sorry about your struggle. Those times still come around for me, even though I've got a wife and kids now.
So, besides praying, what do you do to stave off the depression and loneliness? Does calling up friends help? Getting out of the house? I usually don't manage to do things much different than my usual, even though I know they'll help.
Thanks for your comment, L. Often times, I do not do things much differently when I am quite lonely and sad. I know I should, but sometimes it's tough and sometimes time is the only thing that seems to heal.
That being said, I do find that exercising and hanging out with friends seems to help me forget my trials. Also, service can be a big help too.
I know these answers in my mind, but sometimes I feel nothing will help. I need to work on getting out of these funky moods more quickly in healthy ways.
I've felt that way before too. Sometimes the Lord wants us to get up off our knees and just be active in whatever makes us happy. Hard times are inevitable, but dwelling on them can perpetuate the problem.
Hang in there. You are great. The Lord loves you!
Hey Chris--
I need a new post from you! I hope you're out of the dumps, but if you're not, I wish I could help. Let me know if I can.
Thanks, j! I appreciate your support and concern. I am doing alright now...just busy. I will write more soon.
I think we all do that sometimes. But as I said, I think that the next step is to decided what to do next. Good friends are essential but I think that sometimes we are our lonliest when we are in a group of people. For me reaching out to someone who feels the same and helping them feel loved is the way I go. Some may call this codependence, but I disagree. I think its just learning to forget yourself by finding yourself through serving others. I think anyone you reach out to will be blessed because I can tell you really do care about them.
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